Ray's flashback

With a crooked smile, i wave back, hoping she won't noticed my fakeness. I don't want to hurt her. I'm not that kind of person. I never am.

Once she left and her sight was gone, i sighed and open the post box and took the letters in. I observed the letter carefully. I found lots of bills, poor mother she's been bearing this burden since he left us. I didn't took any tuition since tuition nowadays are very costly, it's enough. Although i never really got along with mom, i do love her and care for her, only that i didn't show or tell anyone about it. She cooked chicken breast with a few drops of lemon on top and broccoli and underneath it a lettuce and also mashed potato as the side dish and as for the drinks, just water. She won't let me touch coke, she's a nutritionist, she takes care of the diet well. Today's my cheat day, so, i'll have snickers, mars, boost, crunchie, kit kat and all the fattening stuff. Don't laugh, i'm being real, she won't find out, shhhh. I don't always have cheat day so when i do, i eat everything in sight, mostly desserts and pastry, i used to be this fatty kid in school people teased about.

Now, that i've grown into well i would say a pretty handsome young man, most girls go awww with me, it's annoying beatch but sometimes i like the attention. I'm pretty smart in my class, i always ends up as the top 3 smart students. Only the fact that i'm poor is what making the girls apart from me and i like that. First they awww,w then they eeewww. What i'm going to tell you is about a story which have made me become the me today.

Once upon a time, i was playing outside on a swing and suddenly i heard people's voice. They don't hear happy to me. I never knew what's angry, i never grew angry. I don't understand that feelings, i know sad, i know bad, i know happy, i know funny, i do not know anger. The voice came from my house, it was my mom and my dad, they were arguing, mom looks sad and dad looks fierce like a beast, i think he's upset but he's not crying or gloomy. When daddy's go out, i don't know where he's going but he left mommy alone, crying in her room. I don't want mommy to be sad, i want her to be happy so she could do things properly like making my breakfast and combing my hair and play with me. I knocked her door and came in and i just came and cuddle next to her, i was six and i still remember that.

I ask her what's wrong?, she said i'll never understand so i said

"Mommy, teach me then about it, i want to understand, i want to make mommy happy"
"You're not adults, i'm much better now, go to your room"
"But i want to"
"Just listen, no excuse, mommy's tired"

That's all she said and no more words. After that, it's always little conversation with her, i don't think it's a conversation anymore. Each day, i'm growing apart from her and i don't even know why?. I don't understand what happened, dad didn't come home that night, he never came back since then. All i keep asking in my mind is "where is he?" and i keep asking the same question to myself hoping i'll figure it out someday. Mom never told me what happened. No one could.

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 Nina's POV

"Ray, can you tell me about your friend?"
"He's here"
"Who?, your friend?, talk to me, Ray?"
"He's near"
"Really?, where is he then?, can i see him?"
"He doesn't like you, he don't like you asking questions"
"Did he said that?, well, can i see him so i can talk to him?"
"No, he said no!"
"Okay, okay, no more questions, i'll see you next tuesday okay Ray?"

I took the papers and put it in my file. I gave him one last look and smile just before i open the door and leave. So far, things wasn't as great as i expected it could be. I took the stairs and meet his mother. I gave her a worried look and touch her shoulders, i said to her that things will get better soon but i know it's not true. She said thank you to me and i smile before i ask permission to leave.

"He doesn't like you, he don't like you asking questions"

The words keep playing in my mind. I don't like it, it's driving me nuts. This case have been for 4 months now and still the friend of his, bullshit. Aargh, i need to stop thinking of his imaginary friend, he's crazy, why can't his parents just see that?. No, i'm a psychiatrist, i can do this. I've just been out of college for 14 months, i need time to rest. It's all because i solve some case of Billy Windhold, people say he's kind of crazy and that there are ghost with him. Bahhh, this is a modern world, ghost must have died a long time ago, you know when the world is at war. Who knows ghost died too?. I don't believe in ghost or other supernatural things, to make it clear, i'm not a superstitious person.

To be honest, i'm not from a rich family, i wasn't raised by rich family. My dad or great great great great dad, never own a land, he's a farmer that works for a rich family. How do i know that?, i just made that up. It doesn't matter, i just wanna make a statemnet that states clearly i'm quite poor, i need money. The only thing i have guts to solve that "Billy" case was just because i terribly need money or else grandma have to die, she needs an operation. Luckily, i made it and the reward was not bad. Now, i need money to buy new cloth, i'm so tired of wearing things that grand ma made, she knows nothing about fashion. I don't mean to hurt you grandma, you know, i just want new cloth that i assume pretty. Not to mention your cloth were ugly but it's comfortable nanny, no need to be sad.

So i have figured this matters a lot. I think i'm going to speed up my sessions with Ray. We're not making any progress so far for so damn long time. I'm thinking to give them a visit tomorrow, i mean he and his multiple personalities. That's  what i assume of Ray. Well, if this case is handled by superstitious people, i would assume they would say that there's ghost with him. Ray's acting is all pretty weird too but i will never take that to another level except that he's terribly mad and have multiple personalities. Well, i don't know what happen to him but i know it's a bad thing.

I gave a hello and smile just when the door's open. It was Ray. Someone's not happy to see me i guess.

"Ray, who's outside?"
"It's Dr. Chevosky"
"Oh, doctor, what are you doing here?'
"Let's speak in the house, if you let me"
"Oh, i'm sorry, of course, come on in"

"Well, i change the schedule since it's been 4 months now and no progress, i hope you're okay with    that, i guarantee he's safety, he'll be allright"
"Of course he will, he's my son, but is "He" okay?"
"We can find out"
"You sure it's safe dr?"
"100%"

She gave me a worried look, i understand her worries but this things must proceed faster than usual, i need a progress.

"So Ray, how are you?"
"I'm fine, what are you doing here?, i miss you"
"Just checking on you, as usual, really?"
"Of course i would, you haven't come meet me for last week sessions and yesterday too, where have you been?"
"Ray, i've been here last week and last night and today"
"Liar!, why does people always tell lies to me?, he was right, i should've trusted him"
"Who Ray?, your friend?"
"No you fool!, me!, i never trust anyone, i know i shouldn't"
"Ray, let's talk about something else, something that wouldn't piss you off"
"No more talk, you said you will never lie to me"
"I didn't"
"You did!, you said you came but you didn't"
"I did!!"
"I know you did, stop yelling at me!, you're just like anyone else, no one likes me, only he wants to become my friend"
"I didn't mean it Ray, it's just that i......, let's change topic"

"He said he likes black"
"You?, what about you?"
"I like black"
"You like black too?"
"No, i said i like black"
"Okay, i like purple"
"I like to swim, i like to see people swimming"
"Why?"
"So i could drown them and see them in pain when they couldn't breath and when they manage to escape to surface, i chase them and when they scream, i'll crush their skull"

I fell of my chair when he pushed me. He leaned his body near to me and choke me, i'm drown in my sweat as i struggle in pain to breath. I tried to scream but no voice came out and suddenly my vision starts to blur and it turns black since then and when i woke up, i realized i have died.

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